Be Kinder to yourself (the empathy, not the chocolate egg)



Although I suppose there is a benefit to unwrapping your outer foil and exposing the fun time childhood wonder within. Wow dude, that was deep.

What I’m actually saying is it’s time to focus on the things that you can do rather than the things that you can’t.
I’m never going to be in a position to do EVERYTHING that I want to do in a week. My health will not have it and if I do that then I will achieve nothing in the next week because I will be collapsed halfway down the stairs watching the iPad because I can’t make it to the television. #first world problems.

But do you know what? The things I CAN do, they are some real achievements.
Sometimes I’m going to have days that largely involve DRC’s dressing gown, Star Trek TNG and crochet.  During that day I may send one email to a potential client or cut up a couple of flyers that I’m going to send out. On those days, I achieve more than I could ever do on the days when I feel fit and healthy. Why? Because I haven’t given up. I have said “Yep, this is a day that I need to look after my health and I am not giving up. If I can do just one thing to move myself forward then I’m doing awesome”. Yes I’m aware of the grammatical issue there, shut up, I’m a cripple.

And I am indeed, awesome.  No power in the ‘verse can stop me.
I’m learning that pain shouldn’t be in your brain.

Yes, I know that rhymes, I’m frakking poet. The rhyming kind.
Today is a good example (not of rhyming). Today I am in pain, rather a lot of pain and I’m finding movement kind of hard. But if you accept that this is the situation today, you can still have a pretty nice time. Just because your body is screaming, doesn’t mean you have to focus your thoughts on bad things that make you unhappy. Yes, I know that is very hard to put in to practice and sometimes I can turn in to an unholy Kaiju megabitch because of pain, but practice makes perfect. So I choose happy. I choose to look at the things that make me smile and to tell myself (yep, out loud) “Well done kid, you nailed that” (yes my inner pep talked is voiced by a 1980’s movie basketball coach).

Next week I know is going to be tough on my health. As well as teaching a couple of classes, I’m covering for DRC’s folks while they are away, I have a session with a private student, rehearsals and performance for Knowing Smirk, a rehearsal and performing with Hard Stairs (great band, check them out) and then it’s my birthday.  It will be a good test of how I deal with relaxing between things. Something tells me there will be the smell of incense and the sound of plinky plonky music coming from my room a hell of a lot!


I am extraordinarily lucky to have someone like DRC sharing my house and my life, he gets that when I get tetchy because of pain, it’s not him I’m angry at. He is patient with the fact that I am trying to run my own business but some days I am not as able to work as others. He is supportive of anything I try to do to make me happy or improve my health. That boy is dynamite (tee-hee).

Anyhoo, it’s probably time to get in the bath and do some scrubbing.

Warm and Fluffy Feelings (or in the current heat, maybe cooling and ice-lollied feelings)